Friday, September 30, 2011

Can someone give me a GPS for my brain.

Ever felt so overwhelmed and all thoughts are lost in your brain. You go in "Freezemode" not knowing what the hell you are doing. You know what you need to do, but don't know where to start. That's when I could use a GPS for my brain. It would be a great invention. Simply hold the device in your hand and give it some simple requests. It then organizes all the thoughts in your head, puts them in order of importance and walks you through each one and giving enough time to complete all.

Sounds too easy! For some people like me who live with Fibromyalgia every day this would be the perfect tool for us to use. I never thought I would admit this and when I first was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia  I thought the term "brain fog" was just silly. Now I admit I was wrong. I feel it every day and have days where I have no idea what to do. I stare at things hoping it will come to me, I forget things that I was going to do and I get confused over the most easy tasks. Why is this? Would be nice to have an answer.

Anyway, there is so much going on in my life right now and I don't know what to do. My mind use to be so organized and I could remember the smallest of things. I was the person everyone came to that needed help with multiple things. Now, I'm the one searching for answers. So frustrating. I use to get irritated with people who always came to me for answers and now I've become my own worst enemy.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Welcome to my life!

I turned 40 last month after months of anticipation. I was looking forward to this new chapter in my life. My 20's and 30's were some of the most memorable and hardest times in my life. I had both my children in my 20's so that was the most memorable, but I also had one divorce and got involved with someone who turned out to be abusive. I left that relationship which was for the best for my kids and myself. In my late 30's I fell in love with someone who is now my husband. Since our marriage we have had some really big bumps in our lives. I had two major surgeries, a car accident and then was diagnosed with two chronic illnesses.

So,  I was looking forward to turning 40 this year. Ready for a fresh start to a new chapter in my life. I'm sure there will be bumps in the road during my 40's, but it will always be like that. It's learning to learning to ride those bumps and moving forward. As I am older now,  I have realized that there is always going to be stress in our lives, but it's how we handle it that makes the difference. We can drown in our stress or we can rise above it and make the most of it. I can say that in my 20's and most of my 30's I had not come to this realization. Don't forget to remind me when I blog in the future and forget my own advice, lol!

Starting this blog was one thing I really wanted to do. Finding a way to get what's in my mind out without torturing all my Facebook friends with long posts and to share with those who want to read about my thoughts. I'm not the best writer, but I am hoping I can be somewhat interesting. I've tried blogging before, but it was on one specific subject. I found that blogging about one specific topic was really hard so I thought I would try again and make this about my journey in my 40's.

So, come along with me down this road. Welcome to my life!